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- [This artical was submitted by p.edwards@open.ac.uk-- Amythyst]
- [My only problems with this article are a) the statement that
- paganism is a religion instead of a category of different religions
- and b) that all neo-pagan religions are feminist oriented. I think
- that a stronger emphasis on either feminine or masculine principle
- is equally destructive of spirituality -- Amythyst]
-
- Here's an article I thought you might want to add to your archive.
- It's from:
-
- New Internationalist no 237/November 1992 Issue title "Magical Mystery Tour"
-
- Nina Silver explains how she started talking to particles of light - and
- offers a feminist analysis of our relationship with the spirit world.
-
- Have you ever been awakened by your own voice reassuring you about the
- next day's ordeals - where you hear the words, know your lips are
- moving, yet at the same time feel strongly that it is not you speaking ?
- Today, we understand this phenomenon as trance mediumship or
- channeling. But in 1979, I had to try and explain this you/not-you
- dichotomy. A psychology graduate, I divided the two-way conversation
- into the personae of the 'child' and the comforting 'adult' - an idea
- derived from 'transactional analysis'. But the tremendous amount of love
- I received from the 'adult' was unlike anything I'd ever felt before.
- With no frame of reference for such energy, I reluctantly called the
- inspired message a 'religious experience' - even though I didn't believe
- in God - because that came closest to describing the phenomenon.
- One week later, on the threshold of sleep, my mouth again started
- moving. Trembling, I turned on my cassette recorder and my career as a
- professional trance medium began.
- At first, speaking to spirit is was frightening. After all, someone
- invisible is borrowing your vocal cords - in effect doing physical
- therapy on you from the inside - and it took time for me to feel
- comfortable with being out of control. But I always got myself back,
- never having 'lost' myself to begin with. Channeling meant sharing,
- rather than abdicating, my space, and I enjoyed the company. Besides,
- the communion of channeling felt familiar, like the experiences of
- precognition and telepathy I'd routinely had throughout my life.
- Communing with humans proved infinitely harder. During a routine
- conversation when the inevitable 'And what do you do for a living?' came
- up, I told the truth, and people otherwise comfortable with paranormal
- matters retreated when I mentioned mediumship. Talking to spirits was
- considered dangerous and unevolved, and the fear surrounding spirit
- communication often escalated into hysteria. Assuming the worst about my
- line of work, they envisioned voodoo and black magic.
- When finally, to my relief, I found people who would talk to me about
- it, I encountered another roadblock. The acceptance of spirits didn't
- provide insurance against misinformation. Well-meaning friends cautioned
- me not to give the spirits too much rein lest they 'possess' me. Others
- smugly advised that eventually I'd be able to do readings on my own
- without depending on an altered state which, they implied, was really me
- anyway. Long-time psychics declared they had no need to channel
- low-level astral beings, as they received information straight from Big
- Daddy himself. Healers insisted that they dispensed loving cosmic
- frequencies, not the cheap and paltry energy of disembodied entities.
- And still other mediums were suspicious of my approach. They would
- channel only after drawing the shades, chanting 'Kumbayah' and praying
- to God for protection.
- I never conducted such rites, eschewing them as formalities. Nor did
- I require much time to 'tune in' to the proper vibrations because for me
- the connection was always present. It was not a matter of turning on the
- radio as much as increasing the volume and selecting the desired
- channel. My methodology, according to many channelers, contained too
- much science and not enough religion.
- Most channelers claimed that their guides, when in body, had been
- celebrated doctors, scholars or writers. This smacked of 'my guide is
- better than yours' - in other words 'male' and 'with a higher score in
- the psychic book of records'. As soon as I became skilled enough to
- mentally (clairaudiently) receive input from my guide, the first thing I
- asked was, 'Who the hell are you ?' I hoped it wouldn't be a Native
- American medicine man or Egyptian king. I had encountered enough of
- those, and didn't want to be part of another male-dominated trend
- conferring importance by association.
- 'I am a particle of gold light,' came the astounding, quantum-physics
- sounding reply. This is certainly different, I thought. 'Many people
- need to regard us as human in order to feel less afraid, but I assure
- you that I am an astral particle who also possesses a wave form.'
- My golden buddy decided to take the name of Ia because - and I would
- hear this being explained to others many times during readings
- 'when I speak, you must perceive me through Nina. Because we are so
- harmonious in personality and values, I feel I am very much a part
- of her. So I took the vowels in her name.' Obviously, a particle of
- light has no sex, but to make life simpler we agreed on the mutually
- preferred pronoun 'she'. This delighted me. I was tired of all those
- 'hes' channeling through mediums and felt that an intelligent and vocal
- 'she' would help rebalance the patriarchal scales.
- My feminist outlook on the world - and the fact that my particle
- friend was an equally committed feminist! - elicited some raised
- eyebrows among my colleagues. But soon after, it was my turn to raise
- my eyebrows. I began tackling the metaphysical literature and
- discovered that even those philosophies which affirmed the existence
- of spirits nevertheless catalogued the world according to hierarchy:
- novice or knowledgeable, lowly or evolved, worthless or worthy. This
- included the structure of the spiritual realms. Any spiritual ideology,
- after all, could only mirror the patriarchal system that produced it.
- Any system that explains our relationship to the cosmos in
- hierarchical terms will question one that does not. It will likewise
- condemn whoever communes with the life force without the sanction of
- churches and other establishment institutions. Since I abhorred
- doctrine and said so, I was perceived by other psychics and mediums
- as a bad girl, disrespectful of the mystical realms. I was supposed
- to acknowledge how much more significant spiritual matters were than
- mundane human affairs and how much more saintly spirits were than
- people - at least the evolved spirits, usually 'hes' and often called
- angels. Instead, disliking barriers, I had dubbed my astral companions
- 'pols' (plural for the acronym 'particle of light'), and called them
- by their first names, generally ignoring titles of royalty, scholarship
- or yogihood.
- If my human associates disapproved, my pol pals didn't mind. They told
- jokes and played word games with me to lighten up discussions about
- existential loneliness and humanity's fear of loving. Ia became a
- beloved friend and an integral part of my life - although of course
- she functioned differently from a human. Having neither a discernible
- physical body nor worries about keeping it fed and safe from muggers, Ia
- could effortlessly express her love and joy. Most people found her energy
- healing.
- Ia could also be downright raunchy at times. I had initially thought
- her earthiness and so-close-to-being-human humanity would be welcomed,
- since it offered an alternative to those dry ancient teachings, but the
- mixed reactions of my clients proved otherwise. It seemed many people
- were not looking for an understanding ally as much as an authority
- figure. They voiced their preferences for yogis and 'name' archangels,
- religion-certified masters who would tell them in lofty language what
- to do. The desire for absolution was strong.
- Eventually it became clear to me that the psychic and spiritual were
- not the same. 'Everything, including spirituality, is a product of its
- culture,' was what all but the most rigid and patriarchal spirit guides
- said to me; and I heartily agreed. Accepting the premise that astral
- beings have been mortal, it's unrealistic to assume that they
- suddenly become omniscient - or more open-minded - once they change
- form. Be wary, I told my clients, if a channeled message claims to
- deliver Truth from God's very mouth: this smacked suspiciously of
- patriarchal elitism to me 'Astral' didn't mean 'accurate', 'better',
- or 'spiritual' just because the message was flowery or the delivery
- fancy.
- It also made sense that just as people attract each other to fulfill
- their needs, a particle of light is drawn to a human who has compatible
- qualities - and vice versa. An egotistical medium might relate to an
- equally self-serving particle; a puritanical medium to a spirit with
- a repressive morality.
- What a blessing Ia felt as I did. At the beginning of our relationship,
- I'd lapsed into the patriarchal point system myself, inducing Ia to
- lecture me numerous times that she was not Goddess or God. I soon
- realized that a feminist approach to enlightenment was crucial.
- Spirituality steeped in male supremacist values was not spirituality
- at all, but a form of mass control. It disenfranchised people by
- subordinating them to a supposedly greater force rather than empowering
- them with a sense of their own wholeness and ability to connect to
- the Life Force themselves. I despaired of ever finding an already
- existing spiritual philosophy I could salute.
- Then I discovered Paganism, the Old Religion of Europe. The season's
- cycles were celebrated; the Earth honored instead of exploited; and
- humans, as part of Nature, celebrated themselves through the
- enjoyment and pleasure of sex. I could relate to this.
- As a sworn atheist, I couldn't relate to the Goddess and her consort
- Gods as actual figures the way some people did, although I recognized
- the attempt at balance that was being made through the worship of both
- male and female deities. I instead saw the deities as symbols to help
- one tune in to Self, Others, Nature and Cosmos. Pagans were of the heath,
- the hearth - the organic center of one's life which a punitive,
- moralistic church could never be. Pagans embrace matriarchal values
- that other traditions ignored, trivialised or pretended had never
- existed in the Earth's history. Because the credo 'Do as you will,
- but harm none' encouraged people to perceive their own divinity,
- Paganism never became a hierarchical institution. It allowed for change
- and growth in a world that is never static.
- Accepting the body's natural cycles of sex, birth and death leads us
- to communing with the non-material or spiritual world. The more life-
- affirming the spiritual tradition - as Native cultures tend to be - the
- more ordinary its proponents regard astral-physical plane communication,
- whatever its form. When Christianity dominated Europe, consigning to sin
- and eternal damnation those who asserted their own connection to the
- spiritual source, this notion of 'sin' was reinforced by putting the
- Pagans and Celts to death. Once people became separated from their own
- source of strength and were forced to rely on something external to do
- their thinking and feeling for them, terror at being 'possessed' by
- uncontrollable forces became rampant. Thus was mediumship, part of the
- old Pagan tradition, vilified.
- Neo-paganism, an Earth-centered, feminist consciousness, recognizes
- not only the interconnectedness and sanctity of all life, but the
- importance of a non-hierarchical way of dealing with relationships.
- People concerned about transforming the prevalent dominant/submissive
- pathology of our culture must understand that our perceptions of the
- psychic realms must ultimately be transformed as well. It does little
- good to rediscover or invent a new paradigm of spirituality if we still
- harbor a fear of Other - which includes spirits - taught us long ago
- by patriarchy.
- The fear of mediumship that possesses many people today conveniently
- upholds the church and other establishment institutions which claim a
- monopoly on answers to the secrets of life. This fear of communion with
- non-human sources is insidious, whether it comes from fundamentalist
- Christians or New Agers. 'Non-human' includes animals, minerals, plants,
- quantum energies. How can we as a species survive if we insist on
- remaining exclusive, so disconnected to Life ?
- The most valuable guidance you can receive from a spiritual source is
- to trust your own centre. In her readings, Ia always emphasizes the
- belief in self:
- 'I experience the universe as a loving force. Beauty and transcendental
- ways of being are integral parts of both the cosmos and ourselves. There
- are many levels of existence, I being one speck of sand in a billion
- deserts - and I am sure there are more I cannot perceive.'
- 'The line between self and other should be remembered - not so we feel
- isolated, but to understand that even as we each are part of a larger,
- loving force, we are also unique individuals in whatever stage of evolution,
- consciousness or form.
- 'Follow your heart. There are as many paths to truth as there are
- beings to create and follow those paths.'
-
- NINA SILVER is a therapist, singer, composer and writer. She is
- currently working on a book of essays called _The Visionary Feminist_.
-